Saturday, February 26, 2011

I got it bad. . .

Cabin fever that is. This winter has really had a toll on my well-being.  The last time I was a SAHM, Chuck went to public school.  I kept the kitchen clean, clothes washed, dinner on the stove and (sometimes) could even get it done before carpool AND have a snack waiting for him when he got home. As they say, "that was then, THIS is now."
Now, my day looks a little more like this:
Get up and sometimes dressed (usually in my pj's),
Get Chuck (aka Little Man, aka Bug, aka Knucklehead, or aka whatever else I may happen to call him at the time!~He's always had about 15 nicknames used interchangeably at my discression.)  Most family calls him Bug. Anyway, getting back to my routine: get Chuck up, ready (teeth, face, etc.) and fed,
Tell him once again WHY he can't start watching TV before school,
Reinforce that IF he work quickly he can be done before "Wild Kratts" comes on PBS at 4PM.
Tell him I love him,
Remind him to always do his best and I'll be satisfied.

Then the fun part starts:  MATH. I love Math. I don't get people who don't like it.  Chuck is good at it. So, why must he make it a painstakingly loooong process? It may take him 45 minutes to do 1 page, but if I call the same number of problems out to him--5 minutes max.  I don't get it.  If he knows the answers, why doesn't he just  write them down. I don't have to supervise every problem completed or do I? I'm new to homeschooling, but I really had this idea that I could teach the information, do a few review problems with him and could leave it with him to complete while I, heaven forbid, fold a load of laundry.  This does not seem to be the case.  I need to know that this is just first year anxiety on his part and he will not grow needing constant supervision.  I know adults like that and it is not flattering.
Anyway this process continues through every subject until about 5PM nightly.  It's too much for this mama to do everyday.  When Gil comes home, we stop.  Gil works too hard to be subjected to the nag of "Come on son, you know this!!", etc.

This school year has left me in a heap: a heap of dirty clothes, dishes, and thrown together at the last minute meals. I also have a bad case of the "can't"s, can't sleep, can't remember, can't think.

Here's what I CAN do, as the VBS song so eloquently put it, "I will cast my cares on the Lord, because He cares for me. I will trust in God no matter what. Cause I know He will never stop caring for me."

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Resolution review, illness update and Grandma's birthday. . .

Well my resolutions have had a slow start to say the least.  With flu and strep rampant, my focus has been on staying well and keeping Little Man well.  We had a scare last week when he started complaining of headache and sore throat (possibly had both from yelling at Super Mario Bros. on the Wii).  After a little Motrin, it subsided and so far so good.

My sister's family has not had it so good this week.  Her father in law was diagnosed with end stage pancreatic cancer. All of them are not dealing well.  I especially worry about  my nieces. The older one deals with stress by not dealing with it and the younger is just having a hard time coping.  This is the first grandparent loss they have had to deal with.  They've had no time to prepare themselves, unlike when my own father in law died almost 4 years ago now.  We at least had a little time to process the diagnosis before we had to prepare for the worst.

Grandma's birthday is tomorrow! She will be celebrating her 94th birthday.  Happy Birthday Grandma Estelle.

On to resolution review:
11 things in 2011. . .
1.  Make one healthy change per week.-Yeah right hadn't started
     that one yet! Not so much going to focus on "low fat", lose
     weight, etc. goals, just eat REAL FOOD-not processed crap.
2.  Craft one day each month--been too cold to go to shop
     and dig out my machine.
3.  Plan my family's menu and cook it!--been cooking, just not
     really with a plan (see post re: spending moratoreum)
4.  Try something new each month.  (January=blog=check!)
     (February=make homemade butter=check!)  
5.  Read the Bible more-uh sorry :(
6.  Make a budget (and actually stick to it!)-hey it's easy to
     budget no money coming in right?
7.  Submit to Gil and be a helper to him.-been easier without
     money to fight about.
8.  Show love to others and serve when/where needed. I have
     even changed our school schedule to accomodate special
     requests.  Something the 2010 me would never have done.
     I looked for excuses not to go out of my way-I know that
     sounds awful, but I justified it with "My child's education is
     more important."  I have since changed my way of thinking to
     "This is a great opportunity to let my child see service
     to others and love in action."
9.  Early to bed, early to rise! Does midnight count?
10. Be "all in". Well, not ALL IN--another one of my many,
      many shortcomings.
11. Finish what I start.-I think my subconciousness threw that
      one in so I would fail and give up all together, but with my
      new accountability partner (this blog), I will give it one
      more shot and keep shooting till I get it right.

Word of the year:  STEWARDSHIP.  I have really had this notion in my soul, not just my mind, for a while feeling the urge to really conserve and turn to more of a homesteading/"crunchy" mentality.
I feel this is my way of good stewardship and being responsible with God's world for the next generation.  If I can keep my little piece of this Earth clean, self-sufficient,  and efficient, as well as encourage others to do the same, maybe another economic downturn like we had a couple of years ago wouldn't give people the "Chicken Little" mentality.  They could feel confident in the grace and provision of the Lord Almighty.

Monday, February 7, 2011


I homeschool, but Gil and I both were products of PS.  Bug went to the same school I went to (great school, good test scores on standardized tests), however he hated it.  He was labeled a "problem child" in Pre-K because he wouldn't sit still for 6 hours a day! The nerve of a 4 year old boy! Anyway, I just wanted to HS so that label wouldn't follow him to the middle school (3rd grade).  To my surprise, when we started this school year, my A-B honor roll (straight As in Math) couldn't add 5+2. . .NO CHILD LEFT BEHIND AT ITS BEST!! I was an involved parent (parent teacher conferences, assisted with homework daily-I had no clue!)  The only problem that was EVER brought to my attention was his behavior.  Needless to say, I am very disenchanted with public school. We do teach Bible in our home school, but it is something we did anyway and was not a major factor in the discision for hs. sorry for the vent.

P.S. If DS ever does want to return to PS, he probably will be allowed to, but I will make frequent visits to the school to insure he does not fall behind again...I want my child to live up to his potential, not down to current expectations!!